Sunday, 29 December 2013

My end of year list of amazing things 2013


Candle Thieves – All’s Well That Ends Well.

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I love this band and I love this album. There is something really special about these two guys, Scott and Glock. I fell in love with the album at the emotional farewell show in Chorlton in May and it didn’t disappoint upon release in September.
‘Try again’ is my most played song that was released in 2013 by any band, it’s melody is thw most beautiful thing.
“It’s ok, say what you want to say, nothing good comes easy, something has to change and we can try again… if we had a make-up song, it would sound like this”

‘Ocean of storms’ makes me cry.
"We were warned that a storm was gonna come, to cover over all the things that we’ve done. If we try we can build ourselves a ship, we can run, we can run, we can run. All aboard said the captain of the boat, if we work together can keep ourselves afloat. Set sail on the ocean of storms, we are lost, we are lost, we are lost. When you’ve given up and you’ve lost the will to fight, only love, only love, only love can see you right"

I LOVE ‘little engine that could’. Classic candle thieves sound. Reminds me of the dark times at school and reminds me to keep fighting now.
“crying the corridor I guess I’m not the coolest kid, but when I grow up I’ll build myself a dream and I will live in it…I’m counting down the minutes until I can hear the home time bell, and I’m counting down the years ‘til I tell everyone to go to hell”

I played the album to my mum at Christmas and she loved it.

Can I give an honourable mention to one half of The Candle Thieves side project – Glock’s new band Sharks and Bears? Go grab a copy of the EP ‘OK, Who Cares, Oh Well, Whatever’. LOVELY guy and so talented. This EP just spoke to me. ‘Worth something more’ just moves me. ‘Wrong/sorry’ is so brave. I have time for people who admit their undoings. Glock’s a good bloke people, and honest too.
“if I’m doomed to feel this way forever, ok who cares, oh well, whatever”.


Boyzone – BZ20.

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I went to the show in Nottingham without owning this album. I’m not the biggest boyzone fan and many of their old songs I wouldn’t know. The new songs don’t stick out like a sore thumb, they could have been hits 15 years ago. It really is the boys at their best since the mid 90s. Just such a shame Steo isn’t here to share it with us.

You know that moment when you listen to an album a few times, need it to bed in, and then WHAM! You’re singing your heart out, fighting back the tears because it just moves you? That is BZ20. I adore it. It makes me happy.
It’s all about ‘Everything I own’, ‘nobody knows’, ‘light up the night’, and ‘Rise’. 

"I would give anything I own / Give up my life, my heart, my home / I would give everything I own / Just to have you back again"

“Nights are lonely, days so sad / I just keep thinking about the love that we had / Now I'm missing you / Nobody knows it but me”

"We light up the night / We’re forever young / You know two stars shine brighter than one / We light up the night"

"We give, we take / We bend, we break / We win, we lose, we try / We climb, we fall / We bruise, we bleed, we fight / Then we rise"


Mark Sheehan of The Script. 

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The man is just so effortlessly cool. I’d love to go and get drunk with him. He’s a talented artist, all round good guy and hilariously funny.
“how is everyone at the back? Everyone alright? nothing I can do about it if your uncomfortable apart from send you soup”

“last night we had our first lock-in in England, (we were actually in Cardiff LOL) *crowd starting booing* Mark shouts: I fucking Know you’re welsh.

And a special shout out for a drunk mark literally skipping over to the gate to us in Cardiff, running down the seafront high-fiving Anna in Bridlington, And the AMAZING banter in Thetford.
Love that man.


The Condems government. 

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I can’t even begin to explain my hatred for them. I said the day they got elected they would fuck us up, and they have.


To see The Killers play Dubai. Beautiful place I wanna see one day.

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The feeling – Boy Cried Wolf.

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It’s how break up albums should be written. Please take note, Newton Faulkner.

I just love this album. It moves me. Connects to me. Definitely their finest moment since their debut and I didn’t think anything could touch twelve stops and home.

It’s all about ‘A Lost Home’, ‘Blue Murder’ , ‘Fall Like Rain’,  ‘Empty Restaurant’ and ‘You'll See’.

“I won't go back / Please, don't look at me like that / I won't go back / I'm alright, I'm not alone / I'm just longing for a lost home”

“Everybody knows I was in love with you / What's the point in saying, baby? / Can't change the truth / And I don't need to tell the world that I'm disgraced / We've heard it all before, my love, and We will again”

“Will you be a doll? / Check the plugs and change the oil / Sure, it's been a long, hard night / But I'm with you, I'll be alright / You fall like rain and make me new / Fall like rain 'til the grass comes through / Sing for me and I'll sing for you”

“Nobody walks into an empty restaurant  / It's hazardous / It's poisonous /Falling in love had me on my knees / It's dangerous / Ominous /For anyone trusting as me to be happy /Nobody walks into an empty restaurant / Don’t take a genius to understand me”

“God knows that I was kind / And so will you when / Somebody treats you like You treated me  /
That's when you'll understand / That's when you'll see / When someone treats you like / You did me”

I just love Empty restaurant. It’s so clever. I love its view point. Empty restaurant, poisonous ex, same difference.

Gloves are off was also a rather great moment live on tour. Love this band.


Darren Hayes. From the T-shirts of the day, to the nice suits. Effortlessly flawless.

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The Script  -  If You Could See Me Now. 

I adore this video. Such an emotional song about Mark missing his parents and Danny missing his dad. The video is beautiful. It’s snippets of their career, looking back on what they would show their parents.


24 hours in A and E.

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Makes me smile.
Makes me cry.
Makes me appreciate what I have and how lucky I am.


Mike” Wazowski from monsters inc. 

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Monsters university was worth the 12 year wait.
“Technically, I caught the pig”


 Danny O’Donoghue. 

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Great frontman. Great Personality. Funny. Sings his ass off. Looks good.
The End.


“Putin can’t handle my fabulousity”

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The fight for equal human rights.

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Russia’s ban of “propaganda of non-traditional sexual relations among minors”. I.E. anti-gay laws. What message does that send out to young LGBT people in Russia, who are gay, or are struggling with who they are?

And don’t start me on India’s Supreme Court re-criminalising gay sex. WRONG.



Robbie Williams. 

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Coolest outfits. Most amazing set design. (OK so he had help from the AMAZING Willie Williams).

15. BEST GIG of 2013.

This is so hard. I have to go with the gig that made me happiest. And that’s The Script - #3 Tour in Aberdeen.

Queuing in the rain and snow, centre front row, Danny O’donoghue singing to me. Amazing. And we got ‘no words’ after we heard them sound check it and tweeted them begging for it to be in the set. A world tour and that was the only night it was played. I liked to think it was because they took pity on us in the snow.


So many so here’s just a quick selection of nature ones, be here all night if i did gig ones lol.

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Taylor Swift Feat Gary Lightbody – The Last Time.

I forgot how much I ADORE gary’s voice.

Honourable mention to The Killers 'Shot at the Night’ (and ‘Just Another Girl’).

18. BEST NEW BAND OF 2013.

The 1975.

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‘Chocolate’. ‘The City’. ‘Sex’.
I love them.
Indie Rock band with a great vibe. It’s all about the bass guitar. Makes me wanna go out to an indie rock night, in a dive of a bar somewhere, and just dance to it all night. They need to play Nottingham.


I wanna pick a Rom-Com and for that, it would have to be ‘The Big Wedding’. So cute. So funny.

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Ben Montague.

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The truth EP made me go see Ben play in a tiny upstairs room in the Rescue Rooms in Nottingham. Just ben and a guitar. So crazily talented. Made me revisit ‘tales of flying and falling’. That whole album is just soooo good. RELATE. Makes me smile. The whole 13 songs on the album are in my 25 most played songs this year.


Holding a baby for the first time.
and the second time.
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The measure of the person you are isn’t that bad things don’t happen to good people, it’s how many people stand beside you when things get bad.

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Discovering PlayStation 1 games on the PlayStation 3 store. SPYRO!! CRASH BANDICOOT!!

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In no particular order:

~ Afternoon tea with my girlies.
~ The entire script tour. SO MUCH FUN, especially St paddy’s day in Manchester.
~ The guy at the Kings of Leon gig in Birmingham that got fully naked for ‘sex on fire’ and stood on his mates shoulders.
~ Meeting Brian and Howie from the backstreet boys.
~ Scouting for girls farewell tour.
~ Meeting my friend Hilary’s beautiful boy at his christening.
~ The killers at Wembley stadium, especially tiffany’s I think we’re alone now.
~ Singing my ass off in the rain in a field in Leeds to Diana Vickers and scouting for girls.
~ Robbie Williams at Etihad stadium
~ The feeling’s tour – great shows, good friends, good food and board games in the pub.
~ My birthday in Ireland – one of my favourite days this year.
~ Duncan from blue singing a few lines to me at their Nottingham show.
~ Bill bailey’s qualm-peddler tour
~ Reconnecting and meeting up with an old friend I haven’t seen in years.
~ Bristol times with Loulou – Zoo, Clifton suspension bridge, the gromit unleashed trail and Bristol balloon fiesta.
~ Seeing Brandon flowers feather jacket at the hard rock cafe in Manchester.
~ Tayto milk chocolate with cheese and onion crisps in.
~ Finding a coca cola bottle with my name on.
~ Watching sunset from the airplane. And the train.
~ The killers singing U2’s pride (in the name of love) in Dublin.
~ Bumping into Dave from The Killers at Dublin airport but failing to find the courage to say hello.
~ The epic weekend of The Script in Thetford and Bridlington. Forgetting to sun cream my nose, and checking into a town called ‘Brandon’. *giggles*
~ A cancelled script show that turned into the most amazing meal with friends.
~ The big reunion tour – seeing five! And bewitched!
~ Legging it to Stamford to see Sharks and Bears debut gig, bumping into Scott from The Candle Thieves.
~ Hilarity with Danny O'Donoghue's massive sony headphones posters on the london underground. 
~ Winter Wonderland with some of my girlies.
~ Xmas with my family.

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Hello?! Darren Hayes One Man Show.
Going to the US of A.

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Saturday, 2 November 2013

Sharks and Bears Debut Gig

Sharks and Bears Debut gig in Stamford was kinda awesome. and I love seeing my soul sister Anna and drinking vodka with her.

Loving the new songs, same vibe, same feeling, relatable, just a different (more electro) sound.

So glad I dashed on that train and went. Anna and were getting out the taxi and we bumped into Scott on his way in. I recognised that dark red hoodie straight away. Scott's face when he saw us, and he hugged me so tightly. Best feeling ever.

To see Glock's face when he saw us and saw our support of him was worth it. I clinked plastic glasses  with him and wished him well. It was a great set. Songs of the new EP and a few other songs. Loved the guitar playing as well. Real mix of everything.

it was a great night! ... well apart from when the train driver on the way home FELL ASLEEP and missed the platform at Melton Mowbray so we had to turn around and go back a few hundred feet to let the people off! not happy, what would have happened if we'd have come across a red signal?!

anyhoo. bed time, but everyone needs to go buy "Ok, who cares, oh well, whatever". like NOW. because, you know, I care.

Friday, 4 October 2013

Darren Hayes interviews in promotion for Secret Codes and Battleships

Darren Hayes interviews in promotion for Secret Codes and Battleships
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Thursday, 22 August 2013

coming out

Something Darren Hayes tweeted, prompted me to blog about it.

"@darrenhayes: If you are 'sad' or 'disappointed' or feel the need to say 'I knew' when someone comes out - what does that say about you? Change your view."

I find it highly offensive when someone says they are sad or disappointed that someone has come out. Just because they dig the same sex doesn't mean you don't have a snowballs chance in hell of dating them anymore, chances are, you had no chance anyway.

I don't actually find it a negative thing to say you knew someone was gay before they came out. It just means you are aware and don't care. So many people I work with are gay and I never knew. I don't see it as a big deal, some like the same sex and some don't. such is life.

I don't see people differently once they 'come out', I don't care who they choose to love and sleep with.... it just makes me happy people are accepting.

It makes me smile when people come out because it means the world is changing and people are more accepting. That being said, I still find it sad people have to come out at all, but then I think, like I'd have a conversation about a boy, a gay person can have a conversation about the same sex and it doesn't matter.

It makes me sad when people flinch in a conversation when I mention 'his boyfriend' or 'her girlfriend'. that's the issue there.

Is it any better to say you'd no idea when someone comes out? maybe you could know them better, or maybe it implies assumptions made by you, or dishonesty or half truths on their behalf ? That's not a nice way to look at it.

For the record, I'm an advocate of gay rights, have been since my early teens, and I love my gays. It's just my take on it, that's all.

"@darrenhayes: The world is a mirror of you. What does it say about you? What can you change so you like the reflection more?"

I don't know what the world says about me. I'm kind, hard working and loyal, I try not to judge. I hope the world sees that. I'm not perfect, I just wanna be a better person each day.
I know what I would change, the answer to that question is personal.

you know I love you D. You know my sexuality and my fight. 140
characters just wasn't enough to express that.

Saturday, 25 May 2013

Would you look into the twilight if you knew that it could blind your eyes

The Candle Thieves
Chorlton Arts  Festival 
Wilbraham St Ninians United Reformed Church

I actually don't know what to say. We laughed, we cried, we loved. 

The support from Scott and Glock and the strength their music brings me is something I don't take for  granted and won’t change because the band have split.

Last Night was so many different things.

We sat in the bar crossed the road called 'oddest' before the show and talked about the memories. The crowd surfing shark that made the first balcony at Birmingham symphony hall is right up there. And the balloons album launch. 

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The church was beautiful but the same can’t be said for the support act. Anna sighed heavily. My thoughts exactly. I don't do religion and I never will. Listening to a band spout their religious ideologies marketed as a 'song' was getting on my last nerve, but I knew the candle thieves would be worth it.

What I wasn't prepared for was how fucking beautiful Scott and Glock's voices sounded in that church. The sound travelled so beautifully, it was the best I'd ever heard them, and it was so bittersweet because it was the end. 

1. Breathing (just for you).

I adore this song. I still remember when I bought the album ‘Sunshine and other misfortunes’ and played it and this song stood out. It reminds me of drunken times at Darren Hayes NYE party and it I just love it.

"But your words were my lifeline, I tried this time to reach out. Breathe in and breathe out".

couldn't have put it better myself. I knew then that tonight was gonna get hard. 

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2. My little room

I've always loved this song. It gives me happiness. 

It made me smile though….and Scott too: "I went to church to teach me how to smile, I'm so happy now that I could cry."

Scott made a comment he didn't realise it was gonna be this hard tonight. Yeah me neither. I thought the music would sail me through on the usual euphoria until the end. But this isn't what a candle thieves gig normally feels like.

3. NEW SONG: ocean of storms?

didn't quite catch what this song was called.

I’m not gonna lie, I was nervous about what this new album ‘All’s well that ends well’ might sounds like. From the opening bars of this song, I knew it was gonna be ok. 

OMG. major relate. I was determined not to cry but this song almost got to me. I sat beside a friend and I just KNEW she understood too. Special songs paint pictures in your head. If I could paint, I would paint you what the song looked like. I can't remember the lyrics that hit me square in the chest, but just seriously, I just understand.

It’s definitely gonna become a fave candle thieves song of mine. It sounds so gorgeous. 

4. NEW SONG: Don't Grow Up Too Soon

This song made me think of Glock's newborn baby boy. "Don’t grow up too soon... we could waste an afternoon". so sweet. 

5. Lonely lonely lonely.

Scott said they had a choice of songs. ‘The Rock and The Bug’ or ‘lonely lonely lonely’. I screamed for the rock and the bug, my heart beating out my chest, because that is one of the songs that I connect to most.  

lonely lonely lonely won out. 

It made me sad that I'd always dreamed of the rock and the bug 'maybe one day' and now it's a definite no, because this is the end.

But it was still major fun. Glock forgot about his surroundings and a certain perhaps inappropriate lyric.

I’m sorry I lost it half way through the video, I was DYING laughing. Nice lyric change afterwards Glock. We love you.

I watched as Scott as he stood clutching his water bottle, watching Glock sing, I could tell what Scott was thinking: ‘I DON'T WANT THIS TO END’. 

I’ve been running around all day today just singing ‘let me in and I won’t bother you again’. The rain was hammering off the train window when i was playing it on the way home. somehow fitting.

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6. NEW SONG: it's in my mind?

didn't quite catch the name of this one either.

I liked this one with the ukulele. Glock and Scott were out in the aisle, and then Danny gruff stood up from literally behind us and contributed a few lines. He sounded good as well. I didn't realise he was sat behind us. There was a lyric about hell, giving the surroundings, I giggled. EVERY TIME.

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7. Not the only one

This song makes me sad. It makes me think of the story behind it. Scott's voice is just WOW on it.

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8. The Sunshine Song

Scott: ‘We are gonna pick things up a bit’
Nope it’s not working I thought. I'm thoroughly sad now.

“we can't stay young forever but we can stay young for the rest of our days”.

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9. Sharks and bears

Scott: "actually I’m gonna use electric for this next one as it's means we're more rock and we mean business... Glock have you got any tales of fave moments in the band?"

"We used to have a list of things we wanted to do before we split up, like a band bucket list. One of them was play a song with our pants around our ankles". Someone shouted “it’s not too late”. That was literally my thoughts exactly.

Scott remarked that they thought that if a gig wasn't going so well, they could at least be the band that played with their pants down.

I guess a crowd surfing shark in a church would have been frowned upon, but I did miss it. 

"Talking to myself I wonder if I'm really there". yep that's me.

…and it still reminds me of that time I did really dream about a shark and a bear in a cage together at a zoo. I was just concerned the shark wasn't in any water and was out on the concrete with the bear.... don't ask. I digress.....

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10. We won't ever be rich (but we could be happy).

Scott: ‘This is our last song but we are gonna come back and sing a bit more if you want us to’.

awwww our happy song. It’s literally the soundtrack myself and my friends lives. It made me happy for a minute, almost made me almost forget it was the end, and then they changed the lyrics to 'we won't ever be rich but were splitting up' and it made me really sad. The sing-a-long just wasn’t the same.

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Glock lit the sparkler. Then remarked that he thought scott was gonna talk for longer. LOL. Whoops.

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11. NEW SONG:  Too little Too late.

 "Wish there was something I could do to make you stay".
yeah, THAT lyric exactly.

Scott sang about a girl that basically told a boy no more chances. That you can’t argue all afternoon and then just buy flowers. That you can’t slam the door and scare the birds and think it funny (I thought it was funny). That maybe he wasn't a knight in shining armour...and I just kept thinking HE IS. SHE'S A FOOL.

Scott said they was gonna end with that one but they couldn't. 

.... And then the band bucket list re-appeared.  Scott said another one on the bucket list was get a chant going. I don’t know how the chant ended up being “chew-ing gum, chew-ing gum”. Anyhow, We did it Scott!
He joked afterwards “I just wish I could have been something more meaningful”.

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12. We're All Gonna Die (Have Fun) 

They played 3/4 of the song through and then Scott said mid-song "if hails is here tonight that song's for you". Scott knows why. THANK YOU. I started to shake. My heart beat out of my chest again. That little shout out meant so much to me.

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13. Stars. 

Scott was swapping guitars and said "I don't wanna rush it's our last song". At that moment the silence in the room became deafening. It made me so sad. 

I was videoing this song for Anna. I lost it once Scott started to cry. To see him swallow tears and still open his mouth to sing. So brave. I was crying too. I was doing so well until Scott started crying.

The video’s a bit shaky because I was trying not to cry all over it lol.

I looked around after the band had come off stage and half the room was also crying. 

“You shine like stars to me”. Always.

After the show.

Someone asked Scott how he got to know Darren Hayes. “We made a video with his husband Richard Cullen. Darren was acting as a runner, making cups of tea, and I thought I'm sure that's the guy out of savage garden, what's he doing here”. Awwwww.

I managed to FINALLY get a copy of Twilight. I never thought I would ever get my hands on it. I gave scott a tenner and he joked that when I got home I’d realise it wasn't worth a tenner and he wanted to give me change. I said no. keep it. And I got home and I played it for the first time and it made me realise a few things: 
* I'm obsessed with Scott's voice.
* I’m not the only tortured soul out there.
* I didn't realise how much of the first candle thieves record was Scott's own EP.
* Such a gorgeous pretty shiny disc!!
* it was totally worth the £10 Scott said it wasn't.

"Would you look into the twilight if you knew that it could blind your eyes?"

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finally a full set:

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And then we got thrown out of church and into the car-park.

Glock joked that the new album might be a hit now they’ve split up and they’d joked their success would come after they split. Glock joked that he keeps trying to crash the car to get headlines. Once we’d got kicked out into the car park, I told Glock this was his chance to run someone over LOL.

I said to Glock outside that my first thought when I heard that sound travel so beautifully in that church was that's its criminal how talented they are but they never made it :( :(

I just went up to Scott and threw my arms around him. I didn't have many words, I just needed a hug. I think he did too.

Scott asked if I had a pen and rather abruptly said no. oops. I didn’t mean it like that.

Scott also said he’d forgotten his bag of gig clothes hence why he was wearing what he was.

I look really happy in my picture. I was really happy to be speaking to them, but really sad given the circumstances.

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A final note.

I Actually can't believe it's over. The only small comfort is the new album in August. I know it's gonna be awesome but also so bittersweet. 

Thank you guys, for the music, the love, the laughs.... good luck with everything you do. And massive congrats to Glock on the birth of Glock jr. 

I love what you guys do. Don’t ever give up singing, playing, even if it’s only for fun in your living rooms on a Saturday afternoon, I know how much joy you get from playing and singing and that should never stop because the band has.  

Maybe one day the time will be right and the band will get back together and we can have a big reunion of our own.

Thank you for making music that has a place in my heart. I love you guys.

Good luck and take care.

All’s well that ends well.

Much Love,