So I went home to Ireland for 9 days. SOO much fun. This time I was in a really great place. Ready for a new year, new life and fun times. Depression blights my life so much and I won’t let it anymore. I refuse.
I spent my time doing ‘normal’ things. I've discovered that I find it incredibly difficult to be alone. even the things I do to amuse / distract me, read, play a game, watch tv, take pics, is more fun with someone beside you. Even if they aren't a part of it but are just 'there'. In Ireland I have people beside me. In Nottingham it mostly just have me, myself and I for company.
Thursday 6th Jan
shiiiiiiiit! Totally messed up flight time. Meant to be at the airport by now. Thankfully the airport wasn’t busy and I got air-side in time for my flight. Fly home. On a plane that allows airplane mode of on iphone. Take pics of flying over. Adored it.
some people visit places. Others experience them. On the bus home the driver almost gave me a heart attack slamming on the breaks at the red lights but then I seen the tayto lorry and new I was home. For those of you who don’t know what tayto are, they are a brand of crisps made in N. Ireland which I ADORE.
On the bus home the sun was shining. That means Darren Hayes album ‘Spin’ was playing. Sunshine & that album go hand in hand to me. I was so happy right then =). The sun was pouring in through the bus windows, it was gorgeous. I often travel in darkness so it was lovely to see Ireland and sunset on the way home. I felt very blessed.
After dinner it was time to sit down and listen to Darren Hayes Delicate Vol2. I just love coming home to stuff and just.... lovefest. I was just stunned:
track1: beautiful. <3 guitar =" <3.">
track5: a real fave of mine on its album. Just beautiful. That soaring voice. Just stunning. I have no words.
Afterwards I went outside and watched the stars with mum. It’s the one thing I love about Ireland. You can see the stars when you go outside. You can’t see them in Nottingham. Too much smoke and crap from everyone’s city living. The country has all the stars in the night sky. <3.
Friday 7th Jan
Chill out day. Play super New Mario bros on DS. Get angry, and then win.
Still OB.SESSED with Delicate Vol2 and track number 1. It is the best song Darren Hayes has ever written. Fact.
Risk of diva strop. Hairdryer = static hair. straightners useless. Mascara dried up. No time to paint nails. No necklace it's knotted. No bracelet couldn’t get it to fasten and had to dash to get my bus. Hate trying to get ready to go out in Ireland. And o2's 3G in northern Ireland takes the piss. doesn't work. Grrrrrrrrr.
LOVED having a giggle at the trailers. Ashton Kutcher's trailer for his new film ‘No Strings’ came on. I gasped. Totally involuntary reaction and my bestie could have killed me. You could have heard pin drop. He does something to me. Paul Rudd. *swoon* *dies* wants to see 'how do you know'. And in other news Winona ryder has a new film out. they let her out of jail then? LOL.
‘Love and other drugs’. emotional. honest. inspiring.
LOVED it. Amazing film that has a message and an importance. It’s a film about Parkinson’s but it’s also a film about love. And connections. And relationships. It’s the best film I’ve seen in a long time and I so wanna see it again. "you meet 1000s of people who never touch you and then one comes along and changes your life forever". I want someone like that.
After I got home I was still thinking about the film. Thinking about how love can conquer all if you love each other enough. That even if you part you can still make it together in the end. I love someone so much it hurts. Just not meant to be.
Sat 8th Jan.
SHOPPING! Get up at 6am after 3 hours sleep :O.
Get on the bus with the bestie and my mum to Belfast.
Dawn looking over the graveyard. amazing view. Shame couldn't capture it.
We take silly pics of us.
We take pics of sunrise coming into Dungannon. BEAUTIFUL. Sunrise in Ireland with the bestie is a moment so rare and I really appreciated it.
I saw a sign in Belfast. “party. dream. wish. Enjoy” love it. Belfast I heart you. We even saw a paddywagon LOL
Times are a changing in N. Ireland. Times are a changing. I saw a card that was congrats on a civil partnership. It made my heart melt. Because not only was it a beautiful card, it was a sign of change.
flamingo anyone? brandon flowers fans? I almost bought it but didn't:
Shopping was a great success. I’m sure the bank manager would say too much of a success. We even managed to make it past the chants of JLS! JLS! JLS! They were in waterstones doing a signing. Missed them. Gutted. NOT. Then it was time after all the shopping to sit down and eat what has become a customary dinner on a shopping trip to Belfast. Cinnamon pretzel sticks. YUMMY.
Had an AMAZING time on the bus home. TOTAL randomness with the bestie. Had to put our seatbelts on, the driver was a maniac and weather was BAD. We played Ispy. I had to shut the bestie up from singing ‘She’ll be coming round the mountain’ with lots of ‘shut up there are people on this bus’ LOL. I think mum wanted to disown us both.
When I got home Darren Hayes was in his chat room and it was soooo much fun. I got a new top that just made me go AWWW that we were talking about. Frilly undies anyone? OK so you had to be there. <3>
Sun 9th Jan.
Lazy Sunday in Ireland. <3>
Polar Bear: Spy on the Ice. <3>
I bought pokemon for Nintendo DS yesterday. Brings back so many memories of a decade ago when I spent 146hrs completing it on the gameboy. The new one totally isn’t as good.
I even had time to reveal the new Darren hayes album cover….
Mon 10th Jan.
Spent most of the day chilling with dad and playing New Super Mario bros on my DS whilst he did his crossword and listened to Alex Harvey band. There is one song I love. Can’t place it. I miss my dad’s humour, I never laugh so much as I do with dad. And I miss his cooking.
I’ve stayed up late every night reading graham Norton’s ‘Ask Graham’ book. It’s his agony aunt column with as much bitchiness and wit as help. It’s funny and inspiring.
“Without a little vino in the garden of Eden, the bible would have been a very short book indeed”
“Never lose yourself in someone else because ultimately we are all alone”
Tues 11th Jan.
Time to get to the old VHS videos out and start converting to DVD. I found an old video of The Box music channel's 10 biggest new vidz. Darren Hayes ‘on the verge of something wonderful’ was it was number 3. Silly grin. :D
I also found some wise words from Britney Spears reality TV show with K Fed before she got sick.
Then I had a total iTunes sesh with my fave purchased songs with mum. Loved it.
Wed 12th Jan.
So Enrique’s new video for tonight I’m loving you is number 1 on the box music channel. I guess controversy and sex sell. Especially when mixed together.
I got ready, wearing said new top I bought in Belfast and was in such a really great headspace. I was tired but I felt a million dollars.
One was called “I'm sending out my love. I'm calling on the universe. I radiate the vibe.”
And the other one “kiss?”
It started to rain. I was soaked. I didn’t care. I was so content. so happy. It was just the realisation that I’m 25 this year and this is the one chance I get and if I'm not happy then love won't happen. And you know, I'm ready to let love in. can't hide in my shell forever. Now where is he LOL.
Time to head off to the cinema. This time it’s ‘Burlesque’. Amazing film. TOTALLY predictable but Christina Aguilera is HOT. I’ve always had a soft spot for her, for her talent she deserves so much more success. ‘Show me how you burlesque’. Cher sung a song called ‘last of me’ which lyrically just tugged at my heart strings. It was so ME.
And in other news today, The Killers are back. Playing on top of a mountain Austria in April! :/ They're back. That’s enough for me until they come back for good :)
Thurs 13th Jan.
Digging out more old VHS video to convert to DVD. The video for Darren Hayes song pop!ular still makes me giggle like I've never seen it before.
Then it was off shopping to town (Enniskillen) with mum.
Spending way too much money on 'things to bring on the Darren Hayes tour' I’ve got a new rucksack, travel diary, pen and wash bag. That’s me sorted. When’s the tour again? ;) is it wrong that every time I see a top and wanna buy it I think ‘ooooh I could wear it to the Darren Hayes tour’ LOL
Leslie’s bakery. Sausage roll. Gingerbread man. They don’t make them anywhere else in the world like they do in Ireland. HEAVEN.
I Bought a few films with totty in. Paul Rudd. Where do I get me one of those? and Ashton kutcher i.e. sex on legs.
Fri 14th Jan.
Sometimes it's hard to leave Ireland and sometimes it's easier. Today was one of those hard days. :'(. On the bus up to the airport I was bored so I decided to check out twitter. I discover that apparently the star signs have changed and I'm now Taurus & Darren Hayes is now Aries. I will always be a Gemini: curious, clever, scatterbrained, talkative.
I enjoyed the sun coming through the bus window. I could feel it. The barmy 8 degrees. Another sunset. Gorgeous.
iPod time. Obsessed with Cheryl Cole’s ‘The Flood’. A great song can paint a picture in your head. Biffy Clyro’s ‘boooom blast and ruin’. <3.>
Then it was a case of “hello 3G I've hardly seen you since I arrived in Ireland last week!”
I decided I was going to go home, get into bed, put a film on and pretend that my holiday wasn’t over. It was weird when I arrived at my front door. I looked up into the Nottingham sky and could actually see the moon and stars so clearly. It was like I’d brought a little bit of Ireland back with me. I got into bed, put ‘Killers’ on with the very cute Ashton kutcher. It was an OK movie. Ashton Kutcher was smokin’ hot but it had a totally shit storyline that went Nowhere! Gah!
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